About my expensive realization

I realized something. This essay is about what is my realization.

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I am gonna write something in English from today. And it doesn't mean that I am not going to write in Korean from now. I had wanted to speak English very fluently like who are studying in America just for hanging out with lots of global friends, and also girlfriend hehe.

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But now, I want to speak English for learning easily. Let's think about someone searching on the Naver in Korean and Google in English. Who can get the latest, useful and can believable information?

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Plz understand my thought at that time learning Eng to meet girls in the future. What are young boys for? I am still child, I realized it just a few moments ago. I am dust which is just tall.

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I get kind of swindled for recent 2 weeks. I paid huge money; almost man' monthly wage, for something to someone. He approached to me on a Facebook message and said "I wanna grow you up and make you life coach, and you can even get some money. But it is not free, and no worries, it's not gonna expensive like your hospital bills." (I think he was coming with knowing how much I have, I wrote about my medical bills before on a Facebook)

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And he said "You can make money how many people you can gathered." Yes, it was pyramid. Pyramid structure is not bad. It just for income structure.

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But, if someone try to sell something in bad way; like take some trick and make some trap, it is immoral. This,,, idk. I don't know Y I pay for this. I wasn't me cuz of his saying. Even I was in his home; Jeju. I get to know how big difference is in Home&Away advantage.

(※In fact, I even disbursed in the condition that I did not understand enough what was his required condition about the suggestion. Actually, it was very complicated, he always only said not in documents but in mouth. I paid small and small, bomb, bomb!)

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I'd had no confidence about the money. He use that fault. If he is good person like he said, he cannot say "Pay for it, pay for blabla. Focus on you can get the money" like that. He knew my money plan exactly. I could've pay for my 6 month' room bills after 2 month. Of course I didn't have enough money for that. But I did, cuz I wanted shed being discouraged about financial things. As times goes by, his saying and behavior is going different and what he said and what he saying is getting worse.

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My fault. And fortunately I came out thanks to my mom. I thought I was kinda smart and clever man. I'd done modeling, studied one more year in countryside mountain, got into such a good Uni, won a prize a lot in model contest, written essay in deep subjects, had diverse part-time job,,, that is why. But I am still dust. Yes I am.

(BTW I cannot get almost payback.)

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I'd wanted to live like billionaire until before this case. Now, I found out how my parents is deserve to getting applause. I make my mind to study hard and to make my ransom higher, to live happy with my people. Thanks to so much expensive experience for my times and money.

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If someone suggest some chance, you should have doubt. Money and chance is not come easy. Look always substance and express your opinion in your right. BEGIN TO HARBOUR DOUBTS, IF YOU THINK IT IS EASY. AND YOU CAN JUST RUN OUT FROM THERE. OF COURSE U SHOULD.

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Believe it or not, memories are exist for better future, so I bought better future life.